Weekending.

 Whew, it's Saturday already. This week flew by. I'll start by saying it was a good week. It might not have been exciting or filled with big plans, but it was good. God's grace was evident in it. 

On Monday I had an appointment with Dr. Gupta and all went well. I was able to report I was tolerating chemo well with the exception of some fatigue within the first few days, as well as a numb tongue for a day. He asked of my hair and I said it was shedding. He looked at my blood work results and said they looked excellent, I trust that that is the case. It was a good appointment. Dr. Gupta is a phenomenal doctor...he has this way of intertwining personal questions and anecdotes between medical questions to ensure you look back on the appointment and laugh instead of cry. He's quickly becoming one of my favorite people and I'm grateful he's become my doctor. Even under the circumstances. 

Tuesday and Thursday I got to babysit the boys. And, oh goodness, the joy it brought to my little heart. The giggles and smiles and snuggles, oh my! We did puzzles, played with sand, "farmed", watched Blippi and Veggie Tales, read books, and ate many, many snacks. It was simply fantastic. At one point, Bennett looked at me and said, "Chloe, you are such a good Chloe." -- You guys, I melted. Simply melted. I have quite a few more dates lined up to watch them in the coming months, and it does me good to know that. 

Wednesday Momma Shoaf and I packed up to go to Lafayette for the day. We went to most of my favorite places...Hobby Lobby, TJmaxx, Target, Starbucks, and McCallisters's. I decided I wanted to be one of those people who decorated for the seasons or holidays. I did have up some decorations for Valentine's Day, and it was time for spring stuff. I went with various pastels, mostly purple. I'm having a hay-day with this if you can't tell. 

Friday and Saturday I worked at the bank. Both shifts went well, nothing overly exciting happened at either. Friday was slow, but Saturday we kept a little more busy. 

Overall the week was good I think. It was filled with good things on top of the to-do lists. This week was probably the best I had felt physically six or seven months...I had no back pain and I didn't need a nap. I can't tell you how much more human I felt because of that. I've gotten cute cards in the mail from friends and family this week. Earlier this week I planted quite a few of my flowers that I bought for outdoors, and I even noticed a sprout this morning. I got offered a job that I feel fairly content the Lord is leading me to saying yes to. 

However, towards the end of this week I just feel "off." I can't quite place it. Like, I know things are good and I know I feel good, but I can't get to that point. It's like I am waking up already feeling peopled out. How is that possible? Not sure. 

And I've been so particular about things. For instance, we're prepping to get our kitchen redone starting on Tuesday. This means packing up all of the pots, dishes, food, and the rest of it and putting it in other places of the house in order to make room for the new things. This obviously included coffee mugs, and my hot tea mug. This mug is used only for hot tea, and it is the only mug I will drink hot tea out of. Well, last night Momma Shoaf made me some hot tea, and I couldn't find my hot tea mug because it had been stored away. She asked me to drink it out of a regular mug, but I simply couldn't do it. I had a whole breakdown over a coffee mug. We ended up opening up all the taped boxes of dinnerware and cups just to find my mug. Not before I cried about it though. 

I have literally no idea what the last 36 hours were for my brain, but I'm over it now and I think (?) that's all that matters. With that said, I'm ready to head into the upcoming week. Blood work and scheduled chemotherapy, along with a couple of other happy events planned for next week. I'm ending the week feeling encouraged and hopeful for what's to come. 

Until next week...

"May He grant you out of the riches of His glory, to be strengthened and spiritually energized with power through His Spirit in your inner self, [indwelling your innermost being and personality]" - Ephesians 3:16 AMP